Most chapters are titled after a medical condition (exceptions are “Hubris” and “Melodrama”). Some of the headings are familiar – Trauma, Infarct, Aneurysm, Meningioma. Other chapter titles flaunt delicious medical terminology that mingles the mysterious and the poetic with nomenclature such as Angor animi, Neurotmesis, Photopsia, and Anaesthesia dolorosa.

Included are riveting accounts of both mundane and seemingly miraculous patient outcomes. One success story involves a pregnant woman losing her sight due to a brain tumor that compresses the optic nerves. Her vision is restored with an operation performed by the author. Her baby is born healthy too. But tales of failure and loss – malignant glioblastomas that are invulnerable to any treatment, operative calamities including bleeding of the brain, paralysis, and stroke – are tragically common. The author describes his humanitarian work in the Ukraine. He admits his aggravation with hospital bureaucracy and is frequently frustrated by England’s National Health Service.

Sometimes the shoe falls on the other foot, and the doctor learns what it is to be a patient. He suffers a retinal detachment. He falls down some stairs and fractures his leg. His mother succumbs to metastatic breast cancer. His three month old son requires surgery for a benign brain tumor.

As his career winds down, the author grows increasingly philosophical. He acknowledges his diminishing professional detachment, his fading fear of failure, and his less-hardened self. He becomes a sort of vessel for patients to empty their misery into. He is cognizant of the painful privilege it is to be a doctor.

The title of Do No Harm is spot-on. After all, this commandment is a crucial caution to all doctors. And for neurosurgeon Marsh, it signifies the restraint he must exercise in his medical decision-making. His approach to the doctor-patient relationship features a gentle medical paternalism that incorporates plenty of honesty and kindness. He writes about his struggle (and occasional clumsiness) with breaking bad news.

His professional life is portrayed as paradoxical – constant anxiety and contagious confidence, phases of futility and strings of inspiring operative accomplishments. The gift of forgiveness, how uncertainty tortures doctors, and the process of dying are significant topics for Marsh. In the last few decades, there has been a proliferation of medical memoirs. Do No Harm rises above them all. The book informs doctors that it’s okay to be vulnerable and fallible, as long as they are also compassionate, truthful, and caring. 

Primary Source Do No Harm: Stories of Life, Death, and Brain Surgery 
Publisher Thomas Dunne Books/St. Martin’s Press 
Place Published New York 
Edition 2015 
Page Count 288 

A previous version of this review was published in the NYU Literature, Arts, and Medicine Database.   
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Realizing he was a member of a tangled (a favorite word of the author) group of transsexuals, James felt himself trapped in a conundrum of gender (he felt and considered himself female) versus sex (he was genotypically and phenotypically male). “To me gender is not physical at all but is altogether insubstantial; it is soul, perhaps, it is talent it is the essentialness of oneself” (p.25).  

After some fruitless interactions with the medical profession, Morris travels to Casablanca in the summer of 1972 to undergo sex-changing surgery and becomes Jan Morris. Unlike many if not most transsexuals, post-operatively Morris fared quite well emotionally and was quite happy with the change.  

Jan Morris’s writing is as humorous and eloquent as James Morris’s was. She describes how magazines like Rolling Stone, publishers like Random House, and thousands of readers have never cared what gender or sex was holding the pen; how life changed in clubs, restaurants, and in taxicabs, where Jan met the first man to kiss her, post surgery, “in a carnal way” (p.151). Morris records that “all I did was blush.” 

As the chronicle of one sensitive and highly literate man’s journey from manhood to womanhood, Conundrum offers much commentary on the states of mind of a transsexual, a highly polished writer undergoing the humoral, mental, emotional, and cultural changes of such surgery.  

Prior to surgery, Morris writes about feeling deprived of an identity: “I realize now that the chief cause of my disquiet was the fact that I had none. I was not to others what I was to myself. I did not conform to the dictionary’s definition–‘itself and not something else’ ” (p.40-41). All Morris wanted “was liberation, or reconciliation–to live as myself, to clothe myself in a more proper body, and achieve Identity at last” (p.104). It took courage but it was worth it and Conundrum reads like nothing more, and nothing less, than a successful odyssey of the sexual soul. 

Jan Morris died in 2020, aged 94. 

Jan Morris: Journalist, Historian, ‘Writer About Place’ – Faculty of English

Conundrum
Jan Morris 
New York Review of Books Classics, paperback 2006: 176 pages 
Originally published by Faber and Faber, London, 1974 

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At age nine, first misdiagnosed and finally identified as having facial bone cancer (Ewing’s sarcoma), Lucy underwent several surgeries and more than two years of intensive chemotherapy and radiation treatments. Pain and nausea, anxiety and fear of more pain and nausea were only part of the ordeal. The young Lucy became aware of what it is to be severely, chronically ill. Her sisters behaved differently toward her: they were polite. “Suddenly I understood the term visiting. I was in one place, they were in another, and they were only pausing.” Even her father felt uncomfortable at her hospital bedside, and Lucy was relieved that he came infrequently.

But being at home was worse: in the hospital the other patients and the staff expected little from her and she felt no guilt or shame; amidst her family, she blamed herself for the tension, arguments over money, and her mother’s depression, even though these elements had existed prior to her illness. Her hair fell out and she became dimly aware that people were staring at her face. Nevertheless, “I . . . was naturally adept at protecting myself from the hurt of their insults and felt a vague superiority . . . . “

Well enough to return to school, Lucy’s disfigured face drew taunts from classmates; she understood finally that she was perceived as ugly and that she would not be loved. Only on Halloween, when she could mask her face, did she feel free and joyful, unconcerned about her appearance, “normal.” Her moods now alternated between despair, determination, and escapism. She became convinced that only facial reconstruction and a restored appearance would make life bearable.

During years of reconstructive surgery Lucy evolved complex rationalizations to give meaning to her suffering. Two anchors had stabilized her existence throughout the misery: a passionate adolescent love of horses, and an adult love of poetry. Eventually outward appearance and inner life became harmonious. “The journey back to my face was a long one.”

Unfortunately, Lucy’s story does not end here. At age 39 she committed suicide. Soon after, her close friend, writer Ann Patchett, wrote a book about their friendship, Truth & Beauty: A Friendship, published in 2003 (HarperPerennial).

Lucy Grealy Interview in 1994 (20 Min.)

Autobiography of a Face
Lucy Grealy
Houghton Mifflin 1994 Boston: 256 pages

1995 Whiting Award Winner in Nonfiction , Poetry: https://www.whiting.org/awards/winners/lucy-grealy
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Back when I was doing my internship at Pennsylvania Hospital, I was so surrounded by history I felt like I was working in a museum. Even the china we dined on in the hospital cafeteria sported the original historic pattern. And when we finished our training, a brass plaque with our names went up on the same wall as the plaques of our predecessors going back to the 18th century.

At the time, none of this was widely known. But fortunately, Pennsylvania Hospital now has an actual museum, open to the public just in time for the nation’s 250th anniversary. The Pennsylvania Hospital Museum is compact yet chock-full of art, architecture, artifacts, and documents, and has at once become a must-see destination in Philadelphia.

Although Bellevue Hospital has roots that go back to 1736, it started out as an almshouse. Pennsylvania Hospital was the first institution in the colonies founded specifically as a hospital, established in 1751 by Benjamin Franklin and Thomas Bond. The 1756 building housing the museum is a National Historic Landmark. Not only is it considered an important example of Georgian architecture, but its cornerstone even bears an inscription by Franklin referring to King George II.

The landscaped grounds are a serene oasis in the middle of Philadelphia’s Society Hill neighborhood and include a Physic Garden containing herbs and plants used for medicines in the 18th century.

As one enters the building, the first room encountered is the pharmacy, which remained in use until 1927 and now contains interactive displays. A fire engine purchased in 1803 sits in the foyer at the base of a grand staircase. After ascending to the second floor, visitors enter America’s first medical library, a handsome wood-paneled room containing more than 13,000 volumes from floor to ceiling, including one of the nation’s most complete collections of medical books published between 1750 and 1850.

The third floor houses the nation’s oldest surgical amphitheater. In the era before electricity, it was illuminated by skylight, so surgeries could only be performed on sunny days. (I must confess that we interns used to sneak into this room when on call. It was spooky in the middle of the night!)

For me, as a psychiatrist, the highlights of the museum were the exhibits on mental health. I have previously written in MedHum about Benjamin Rush, often called the father of American psychiatry, whose portrait is on view here. Rush served on the staff at Pennsylvania Hospital from 1783 until 1813 and was known for his groundbreaking and humane treatment of the mentally ill. Metal shackles once used as restraints are also on display, although hopefully they predated Rush’s tenure.

Another psychiatric pioneer whose portrait hangs in the museum is Thomas Story Kirkbride, who came to Pennsylvania Hospital for residency training in 1834. When the psychiatric wards exceeded capacity and a satellite facility was built on 101 acres in West Philadelphia, Kirkbride was named superintendent. His ideas about the layout and design of mental institutions became highly influential, leaving an imprint on hospitals throughout the country.

Initially called the Pennsylvania Asylum for the Insane, the new campus eventually became known as the Institute of Pennsylvania Hospital. I completed my residency training there, but over time it was no longer financially viable, and it closed in 1997.

How fascinating to learn that Francis Scott Key, of “The Star-Spangled Banner” fame, wrote a poem titled On Visiting the Pennsylvania Hospital. And to see 18th-century anatomical casts used for teaching at a time when formal dissection was illegal.

There is so much history in this museum that I could not absorb it all in one visit. With its addition, Philadelphia further demonstrates its role as the cradle of American medicine. Indeed, one would have to travel to London to find a larger assemblage of medical historical sites.

In one very busy day—or a more leisurely two-day trip—a visitor can now experience this museum, plus the College of Physicians of Philadelphia and its famous Mütter Museum, while also stopping to see The Gross Clinic by Thomas Eakins. (The painting alternates between the Philadelphia Museum of Art and the Pennsylvania Academy of the Fine Arts, but will spend 2026 at the latter.)

Bravo, Philadelphia!

Benjamin Rush:  Reflections from a Psychiatrist 

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A founding figure in American psychiatry, known for pioneering reforms, but also controversial for his treatments and complex contradictions in beliefs and practices.

For more information about the museum, visit Pennsylvania Hospital Museum.
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The nature of phantom limb pain has bedeviled amputees and bewildered physicians and surgeons for centuries; up to 87% of amputees experience it during their lifetime. Consistently effective treatments remain elusive. Biomedical texts on the subject are at once complex and speculative. Olga Tokarczuk, in her 2018 novel, Flights, imagines what phantom limb pain could be like for someone, and the desperate search for relief it can produce. 

Flights centers mostly on the narrator’s travels among different places and across different times. It comprises mostly packets of individual story vignettes and fragments; some short, some long; some fictional; some real, some both. And though many different stories are told with many different characters about many different subjects, something about travel connects them all.  

Certain preoccupations manifest themselves in various parts of the book. One in particular concerns the technical aspects of preserving human body parts, which comes into play in a story fragment involving phantom limb pain. The main character is Philip Verheyen, who is a real historical figure known as a renowned Flemish surgeon and anatomist of the late seventeenth and early eighteenth centuries, and as the author of Corporis humani anatomiae (1710).  

As Tokarczuk tells the story, Verheyen was twenty-eight-years old in 1676 during his second year of university in Leiden when he scraped his left calf on an exposed nail of the stairway leading to his rented lodgings. His pants were torn and his skin broken. Though the injury seemed minor at first, it evolved into a raging infection that later required below-the-knee amputation.  

With the care of his landlady, Verheyen recovered after which he was seen “tapping his peg over the uneven paving stones of Leiden,” to attend lectures on the subject of anatomy at the university medical center.” (p. 195) In a matter of a few weeks after the amputation, however, the pain started. 

The pains came at night as his body was relaxing and slipping across the uncertain boundary between waking and sleep…He would have the impression that his left leg was numb, and that he absolutely had to get it into the right position—he felt his toes tingling, an unpleasant sensation. He fidgeted, half conscious. He wanted to move his toes, but the unperformability of that movement awoke him completely. He would sit on the bed, tear the blanket off himself, and look at the aching place—it was some thirty centimeters below the knee, there over the rumbled sheet. He would close his eyes and try to scratch it, but he touched nothing, his fingers combed the void in despair, giving him no relief. (p. 203) 

In imagining how Verheyen could respond to his desperation for relief, Tokarczuk draws on his intense interest in preserving human body parts. Before the amputation, he begs the surgeon to “preserve the removed leg.” (p. 193) The surgeon followed Verheyen’s detailed instructions for preparing his amputated limb by placing it “in a glass vessel filled with a balm of Nantes brandy and black pepper.” (p. 193) Verheyen kept it “on his headboard or stretched scarily out on the table.” (p. 196) Eventually, he looks to it as a possible source of relief. 

Once, in a fit of despair, when the pain and itching were driving him mad, he stood and with trembling hands lit a candle. Hopping on one foot, he moved to the table the vessel with the cut-off leg [rested]…He extracted the limb and in the candlelight tried to locate in it the reason for the pain…He sat down on the floor, stretched his legs out before him, and laid the amputated limb on the place just below his left knee. He closed his eyes and groped for the painful place. His hand touched the cold piece of flesh—but could not reach the pain. (pp. 203-204) 

Verheyen’s maneuvers and observations did not provide him relief. With his medical training, he begins thinking about mechanisms that could be causing this excruciating and frustrating phenomenon. 

What is it that awakens me, when I feel pain and suffering, since my leg has been separated from me and is floating now in alcohol? There is nothing pinching it, no reason for its suffering, no such pain that can be logically justified, and yet it exists. Now I look at it and simultaneously feel in it, in the toes, unbearably hot, as though I were submerging it in hot water, and this experience is so real, so obvious, that if I were to shut my eyes, I would see in my own imagination the bucket of water overly heated and my own foot submerged from toes to ankle. I touch my bodily existing limb in the guise of a lump of preserved flesh—and I don’t feel it. I feel, meanwhile, something that does not exist, it is in a physical sense an empty place, there is nothing there that might give any sensation whatsoever. The thing that hurts does not exist. A phantom. Phantom pain. (p. 208)  

He comes up empty. 

Tokarczuk cannot imagine Verheyen would let the issue lie and accept it simply because he is without an anatomical or pathophysiological explanation. She knows that before he began his schooling in medicine, he was studying theology towards becoming a Catholic priest. In fact, in the book and in his real life, the amputation disqualified him from Catholic priesthood. So, Tokarczuk brings his theological training into thoughts he could have about this phenomenon that is torturing him from spiritual realms, and in this way leaving Verheyen to contemplate the mind / body relationship. He concludes, “The body is something absolutely mysterious.” (p. 209)  

It still is.  

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The Knick portrays all that goes on in and around a hospital struggling to provide care for the poorer classes in lower Manhattan during the early 1900s. It shows that many of what were then considered important advances in medicine, technology, society, and culture were later considered dangerous, unethical, barbaric, inhumane, and racist. The series asks whether health care of any era, along with associated social and cultural factors at work, are destined to be seen sometime in the future in similar ways. 

Storylines of the Poor and the Famous 

The Knick was inspired by the Knickerbocker Hospital, founded in Harlem in 1862 to serve the poor. In this twenty-part television series spread over two seasons, the fictional Knick is located somewhere in the lower half of Manhattan around 1900. The time covered during the series is not marked in any distinct way. The characters do not age much, and although fashion and customs remain static during the series, the scope and significance of advancements that come into play were actually adopted over a longer time than the episodes cover.  

The series builds on some known history. The central character, the chief surgeon Dr. John Thackery, is modeled on a famous surgeon of the time, Dr. William Halsted, in both his surgical adventurism and in his drug addictions. The character, Dr. Algernon Edwards, who is an African-American, Harvard-educated, and European-trained surgeon, is based in part on Dr. Louis T. Wright, who became the first African-American surgeon at Harlem Hospital during the first half of the twentieth century.   

Storylines of human drama and folly run through the series. Among them are medical cases both ordinary and bizarre, heroic successes and catastrophic failures, loves won and lost, gilded lives and wretched existences, honor and corruption, racism and more racism. Within these storylines are the scientific, medical, and industrial advances of the period, as well as the social frameworks that form fin de siècle hospital care and medical research in New York City.   

Some of the industrial advances adopted by the hospital include electrification, telephone service, and electric-powered ambulances. We see that transitions to these new technologies are not without risks and catastrophes: patients and hospital staff are electrocuted, and when the ambulance batteries died — a frequent occurrence– many of the patients they carried died, too. 

Medical advances integrated into various episodes include x-rays, electric-powered suction devices, and an inflatable balloon for intrauterine compression to stop hemorrhages. Thackery is a driven researcher taking on some of the big problems of the day, such as making blood transfusions safe, curing syphilis, and discovering the physiologic mechanisms of drug addiction. We see how he learns at the cost of his patients, or rather his subjects. We also get a glimpse of movements directed at population health. For example, epidemiological methods are applied to find the source of a typhoid outbreak, which drew from the actual case of Mary Mallon (aka, Typhoid Mary). Shown juxtaposed to the advances in epidemiology is the concurrent interest that was rising in eugenics and its broad application to control for unwanted individual traits and particular groups of people. Research ethics and regulations were a long way off.  

Time Tells 

Each era possesses its own hubris based on the technological advances and social progress made over those of previous eras, and on the certainty that the mistakes made before have not been repeated. Time reveals whether those attitudes and positions were justified. For Soderbergh, the director of the series, this idea was top of mind, and he stated as much in an interview published in the August 1, 2014 New York Times:  

There are so many treatments on the show that make you gasp because they’re so wrong…It just makes you wonder what treatments we’re all taking at face value that 10 or 15 years from now we’re going to be told, ‘Well, that didn’t work, and in fact that makes it worse.’  

Early twenty-first-century medical care has benefited from advances in molecular biology, medical devices, surgical procedures, data analytics, and epidemiological methods among others. People only participate in experimental protocols with their informed consent, and health care workforces are highly diverse. Impressive indeed, but none that in any way dwarf some of the advances shown during the series, and many that make twenty-first-century medical care possible. And, while The Knick shows how patients were often victims of bad science, bad technique, unproven technology, and malfeasance, the current era of health care is rife with risks for its own harms. Based on a complex analysis from several sources, the U.S. Institute of Medicine estimated in 1999 that between 44,000 and 98,000 people die from preventable medical errors each year in the US (To Err is Human). In 2016, researchers from The Johns Hopkins University reported in the May 3, 2016 issue of The BMJ (The British Medical Journal), that at the time The Knick was running in 2014–2015, medical errors were the third leading cause of death in the U.S. While the the accuracy of these estimates could be challenged, we can take from them with some amount of certainty that medical error exists today to a significant degree.  

The Knick pushes us to consider and to beware of what we may see resulting from modern-day biomedical and technological advances as time passes. To the medical drama and personal drama of most television medical serious, The Knick adds the drama of time. 

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The Knick
Steven Soderberg, director 
Cinemax 
Twenty episodes, 2014-2015 
Running time: 42–57 minute episodes 

Awards
Peabody Award 
Six Primetime Emmys 
Three Critics Choice Television awards 

The Knick began streaming on HBO Max on February 20, 2021 

Actor Clark Middleton wrote this autobiographical dramatic monologue in collaboration with Robert Knopf. Stricken with juvenile rheumatoid arthritis at age four, Middleton enacts his early painful experience — painful physically and emotionally. He takes us through an adolescence complicated by physical difference, his interaction with medical professionals over the years, and his craving to become an actor. Middleton struggles with the medical establishment, the pain and humor of coming-of-age, and ultimate self acceptance. Eventually, he was able to have both hip replacement surgery and a career in theater and film. The play is funny, poignant, and instructive.

Miracle Mile was performed in New York City in Fall, 1997 at Theater Row. The New York Times review called the play, “an enriching chronicle of a man who refuses to let the world take him at face value.” Middleton performed his monologue at New York University School of Medicine and at other institutions. Clips of a videotape of the theater performance are available at this web site.

Archive Videos from the Play

Actor Information
Clark Middleton (actor/author) performed MIRACLE MILE Off-Broadway in the fall of 1997. He has appeared in Sam Shephard’s CURSE OF THE STARVING CLASS as well as Mr. Shephard’s CHICAGO at the Signature Theatre Company. Clark was in William Hoffman’s AFTER THE ORCHARD and performed MIRACLE MILE at the Invaluable Cape Cod Theater Project. He began his professional career performing with the late Geraldine Page in productions of THE MADWOMAN OF CHAILLOT, PARADISE LOST, and VIVAT VIVAT REGINA. Since that time he has appeared in more than 40 NYC productions, most notably at the New York Shakespeare Festival, The Public Theatre, LaMaMa and Circle Rep, where he appeared with Olympia Dukakis in THE HOPE ZONE. In NYC Clark has directed LONE STAR, OUR DALY BREAD, DOMINO COURTS, CALL IT CLOVER and KIDNAPPED. He also directed MARVIN’S ROOM at The Wayside Theatre in Virginia. Clark can be seen in the films BAIL JUMPER, STORIES FROM NEW YORK, THE CONTENDERS and DON’T SHOOT DARLING. Clark plays the forensics expert Ellis on NBC-TV’s LAW & ORDER. He is a native of Tucson, Arizona and a member of both the Lab Theater Company and the 42nd Street Workshop.

Clark died on October 4, 2020. He was 63 years old.

Director Michael Warren Powell
Leading Actors Clark Middleton
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Original Date of Entry 07/12/06

An earlier version of this review was published in the NYU Literature, Arts, and Medicine Database (Litmed).

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Alive: Our Bodies and the Richness and Brevity of Existence by Gabriel Weston 

Boston: David R. Godine, 2025, 304 pages 
ISBN 9781567928235 

The physician experience, medical history, motherhood, anatomy, and worries about her diseased mitral valve are tenderly sutured together by ENT surgeon Weston in her exploration of “the poetry of the body.” In thirteen chapters, she eloquently contemplates “the strange, unbridgeable gap that exists between the body science describes and the one each of us is living inside right this moment” (p194). In describing the anatomy of bones, brain, breasts, genitals, gut, heart, kidneys, liver, lungs, skin, and womb, Weston writes with a wit and intense curiosity reminiscent of popular science writer Mary Roach. But the book’s splendor arises from its attention to the art of doctoring. Weston notes how good physicians require a kind of “bifocal vision” that allows them to see the generalities of the human body but also the unique details of an individual patient. She extols empathy and elevates vulnerability: “We are not separable from those we care for, just as our strength is not separable from our vulnerability” (p263). Melding science and sentiment, mixing professional life with personal life, Weston enlivens anatomy and pays homage to the physician-patient relationship.  

The Land in Winter by Andrew Miller 

London: Sceptre, 2024, 384 pages 
ISBN 9781529354270 

Andrew Miller’s remarkable 1997 debut novel Ingenious Pain chronicles the complex life of an 18^th century highly skilled English doctor incapable of feeling pain. Twenty-seven years and many novels (Oxygen, Pure, The Optimists) later, Miller’s latest book spotlights a main character who also happens to be an English physician – but this flawed human being hurts (especially emotionally). Eric Parry is a 36-year-old country doctor having an extramarital affair with a married woman while his wife Irene is pregnant. Next door to their cottage is a farm owned by Bill Simmons and his pregnant wife Rita who suffers from mental illness and enjoys reading science fiction. It is winter (December, 1962 – January, 1963) and for a time the rural community is paralyzed by a brutal blizzard. Happy endings are in short supply here. One of the pregnant women has a miscarriage while sitting on the toilet. Characters get injured. Some patients die. Eric’s infidelity is exposed. Still, compassion and empathy occasionally sprout amidst the bleakness and the cold. Irene is cognizant that her husband’s work is hard as he “had to deal with people’s suffering all day” (p55). Eric excels at examining patients with a manner that “calmed” them. Secrets, loneliness, belonging, complicated personal relationships, and poor decision-making are essential elements of the plot. The story asks readers to contemplate whether virtuousness is a necessary requirement to be a “good doctor.” 

Doc or Quack: Science and Anti-Science in Modern Medicine by Sander L. Gilman 

London: Reaktion Books, 2025, 320 pages 
ISBN 9781836390152 

Bloodletting and purging (“heroic medicine”) employed for a wide array of diseases. Laetrile (a chemical present in apricot seeds) used for treating cancer. Hydroxychloroquine and Ivermectin prescribed for COVID-19. Spanning centuries, the list of wacky, ineffective, and sometimes dangerous remedies for illness is quite lengthy. In this standout history of scientific medicine from the mid-19^th century to the present, Gilman navigates “the ever-shifting boundary between good medicine and quackery” (p15). He reviews the rise of allopathic medicine that resulted from “following the science” as discovery and knowledge migrated from the laboratory to the bedside. He writes about the model of the physician-healer, the placebo effect (along with the morality of deception), superstitions (of both doctors and patients), and the faddish nature of medical practice. Gilman is rightly concerned about physicians experiencing burnout and patients feeling disconnected from their doctors in truncated office visits. He wonders if empathy and efficacy can coexist in contemporary healthcare. Three “case studies” are presented: peptic ulcer disease, the development of ophthalmic surgery, and acupuncture for back pain. A thoughtful study of historically “good” and “bad” medicine and the occasional blurring between the two. 

Additional recommended books published in 2025: 

The Mind Electric: A Neurologist on the Strangeness and Wonder of Our Brains
by Pria Anand 

The Age of Diagnosis: How Our Obsession with Medical Labels Is Making Us Sicker
by Suzanne O’Sullivan 

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Mrs. Lin is a fifty-five-year-old woman who has lived alone in Canada for many years while her husband lives back in China. Her two sons are both working and out of the house. Last week, she discovered a new breast lump while showering. A few days later, she’s in my clinic to get the lump checked. As her family doctor, I order a mammogram and an ultrasound. When the results of these tests come back a few days later, the report indicates that the findings are suspicious for malignancy and a biopsy is necessary. 

Mrs. Lin returns to the clinic and I relay the information to her. I try not to mention the word “cancer” to her, but it hangs between us, powerful even if it remains unsaid. I urge her not to jump to worst case scenarios, but we both know that one way or the other, this is life altering news. I promise to order a referral to the breast diagnostic clinic at the community hospital nearby and that the breast centre will reach out to her in the next week or two. 

Later in the week, I receive a fax from the breast clinic. They’ve been trying to reach my patient by phone but with no success. Do we have another way of contacting her? 

I instruct my office staff to try to reach the patient. They call repeatedly for a few days. The breast clinic appointment is scuttled but I’m not actually worried. I’ve seen this pattern many times before. I am certain the patient has already flown the coop. 

A few days later, my hunch is proven right. My nurse manages to reach one of Mrs. Lin’s sons. His mother is safely back in China, seeking medical attention there. They’ll call us when she returns sometime next year. 

When my father boarded a plane in Taiwan in 1967 to come to Canada on a one-way ticket for graduate school, my grandmother saw him off at the airport. She gave him $1000 and said, “I’ll see you in about ten years.” 

She wasn’t far off. In fact, he didn’t return to Taiwan until 1974, for his wedding. 

That was what being a Chinese-Canadian immigrant was like back in those days. A journey to the other side of the world was truly a journey into an unknown abyss. Letters marked “airmail” with the blue and red checkered envelope edges took weeks to circumnavigate the globe. If my father wanted to call his parents, he’d reserve the call for special occasions like Chinese New Year because long distance rates were exorbitant. And even then, he’d be careful to limit the call to one minute and fifty seconds because exceeding the two-minute mark meant paying unnecessary fees. 

Immigrating was essentially a one-way trip. Immigrants like my father rarely considered the prospect of flying back home because it was something most of them simply couldn’t afford. There were only two acceptable occasions to fly home: your own wedding or a death in the family. 

The journey for today’s Chinese-Canadian immigrants is different. Not only can they communicate easily with those back home using apps like WhatsApp, WeChat and Line on an hourly basis, but based on my observation of my Chinese Canadian immigrant patients, even those who struggle financially, seem to have a reserve fund that they can dip into and use to return to China on a moment’s notice. Home is never more than a one-day airplane flight away. 

And people fly back for all manner of reasons now: family illnesses, Chinese New Year, summer vacations, and most definitely, for expediting medical investigations. 

The fluidity with which patients move back and forth speaks to a difference in what motivates immigrants to come to Canada. When my parents’ generation left China or Taiwan or Hong Kong, often it was to trade a future bleak of possibilities for a possibly prosperous future. But for many of today’s Chinese immigrants, it’s a trade of one hopeful future, for possibly, a slightly better one, but with the option to go back if this future in the West doesn’t work out. 

Health care has become part of this back-and-forth fluidity. It used to be that the health care trade off would have been clear–Canadian health care was more advanced than that in China in the sixties and seventies. But that’s not entirely true anymore, and today’s immigrants arrive with a great deal more reticence about our health care system. 

Health care always presents unique challenges to an immigrant population. Illnesses imply a degree of immediacy and urgency. They play out on their own timetables – they don’t wait for people to become comfortable with the language or culture of a place before occurring. 

So the new immigrant is forced to face the health challenges of regular life—acute illnesses, chronic diseases, bodily injuries, babies being born, and even the occasional life-threatening-situation without the social support structure that they would have had back home. All this is part of the bargain that the new immigrant strikes with their adopted country. And so they pray that nothing major will befall them, but when something invariably does, what do they do? 

In the previous generations, immigrants here had little recourse but to seek out solutions in the Canadian health care system. Whether their English was up to snuff or not, they were forced to navigate the system here. Many Chinese immigrants like my parents flocked to Chinese-speaking doctors like me in the hope that at least less would be lost in translation if they found a Chinese person holding the stethoscope. 

The modern immigrant though, has the luxury of straddling the line between the Canadian and Chinese health care systems, keeping one foot in China’s health care system and another foot in Canada’s. 

Unhappy with the wait times for elective knee surgery in Ontario? No problem. A doctor in Taiwan or Hong Kong will have you on the table in the OR in a few weeks, not months. 

New discovery of lymphoma? No need to wait for your family doctor to refer you to an oncology clinic and for that clinic to send you for imaging before finally making a decision on treatment—a process that can easily span into months. If you fly back to China, you can walk into a specialty clinic the next day, see a doctor by lunch time and have imaging and an oncology plan done by the end of the week. 

When it comes to China, the western world has a tendency to see things in stark black and white terms: e.g., freedom is good and communism is bad. As a Chinese Canadian physician, I find that this type of thinking carries over to our view of the health care system. Medical students in Canada, are taught that the Canadian health care system is a virtuous, humane social experiment, one of the country’s proudest achievements. It’s drummed into us that it delivers world-class care to the majority of its people. And we’re proud to be trained in it. Sure, it has its problems, but nothing’s perfect. 

There is a hidden side to this curriculum though. If we’re world class here, what about health care systems in other places? What about Africa? What about South America? What about China? 

Perhaps unintentionally, we’re taught to look down on the systems of other countries. We use words like ”developing“ and “evolving” to describe health care systems in these places. But in private, we often shake our heads in exasperation and use far worse language than that. 

These stereotypes were only reinforced when I started practicing medicine about fifteen years ago. The requests of my Chinese patients, often rooted in their own experiences with the health care systems they had left behind, drove me batty on a daily basis. 

I’d try to explain to my patients that, “Yes, that might be the case there. But you don’t really need any of those things.” But it’s hard to convince someone that everything they’ve accepted as truth may not be correct. 

The worse complaint was always about the wait times. This was one that I could not refute. It’s well-known that wait times for medical procedures in Canada are criminally lengthy. But whereas my Canadian patients had nowhere else to go and would just vent to me about the breaking down of our country’s beloved health care system, or try to drive a few hours to Buffalo to get an MRI, my Chinese patients had the luxury of options. They could hop on a plane, land in China or Hong Kong or Taiwan by the end of the week and get whatever they wanted within days, not weeks or months. 

I should point out that the feedback from patients about the Canadian health care system wasn’t always negative when compared to back home. I learned that the fifteen to twenty minutes I allocated to speak to each patient was approximately twelve to eighteen minutes more than they got in the typical Chinese hospital. 

Still, there were many frustrations that I was unprepared for. Patients would return to my clinic armed with reams of paperwork (all in Chinese), documenting checkups and physical exams that they had done overseas: lab tests and CT scans that had no indication for being ordered, medications that they had been prescribed that were not really indicated. 

If modern medicine in the West suffers from an over-reliance on medical imaging and pharmaceuticals at the expense of a more prudent and holistic approach to care, then modern Chinese medicine has become Western medicine’s adopted twin, with all the same problems we have, except with even less sense of restraint and caution. 

Mr. Zhang is a middle aged, Chinese man with diabetes. In China, people routinely retire in their early fifties and one of the perks of retirement is long term health insurance, so even though Mr. Zhang has lived in Canada for almost fifteen years, he still can access Chinese health care whenever he is back home. 

Mr. Zhang isn’t alone in returning home to seek health care. Even those without health insurance often choose to pay out of pocket to access health care in China on a regular basis because the costs aren’t prohibitive 

Because Mr. Zhang travels back and forth between China and Canada on a regular basis (after all winters in Canada are cold), he needs doctors on both sides of the world to help him manage his long-term diabetes. What he’s discovered is that the quality of care in both countries is, for him at least, comparable. The general procedures for diabetes, routine blood testing, and medication adjustments, are similar in both places. But there are some noticeable differences. 

He informs me that in China, the health care system is heavily incentivized by the profit motive. Hospitals make more money if they achieve certain revenue quotas, and this is passed on to the doctors, who in turn pass this mindset down to the patients. 

At the same time, it’s well known to him and all his friends, that in Canada, with a public health care system, cost-cutting is much more of an issue. 

The doctor as gatekeepers of the health care system is sometimes a difficult concept for patients to understand. Doctors in China are not really gatekeepers of the system the way they are in Canada, where doctors spend a great deal of time being instructed on not over-ordering tests. Not all medical investigations are necessary. Extra tests beget extra costs and may engender unnecessary anxiety and have deleterious consequences for the patient-just think about the patient who worries about a lung nodule that will never cause them problems once it’s been spotted on an unnecessary chest X-ray. These are hard lessons that even medical practitioners in the West struggle with at times. For my patients from China, this concept is irrelevant. In a privatized system where patients can pay for what they want, getting an unnecessary MRI is no different than spending money on a fancier car or an extra helping of dessert: nobody really needs it, but if they can afford it, then why not? 

So if I try to explain to my patients why I don’t think they need that MRI they really want, they think I am just trying to save the government of Canada money. If I am really hard-nosed about it, they just might turn around, get on a plane and have the test done in Shanghai or Taipei by the end of the week. 

In China, if I want an MRI and can afford to pay for one, then who is anyone to stop me from getting what I want? If a cardiologist makes more money for pushing a certain type of stent at a patient, who is going to stop them from recommending it to patients who might do just as well with a less aggressive intervention? 

To be sure, these are problems that exist in many parts of the world, even here. But reviewing the stacks of lab results and CT scans that my patients lug back to Canada from overseas, I can’t help but feel that my patients have stumbled upon the Wild, Wild, West of health care-except it’s in the Far East. 

There is of course a downside when patients straddle two countries for their healthcare. Countless times, I’ve had patients return from overseas after having had a major health calamity. Maybe they had breast cancer diagnosed in China, or a screw placed in their hip after a fall, but now that they’ve returned to Canada, no specialist office will see them.  

Dutifully, the patient brings copies of their hospital notes from China, copies of their CT scans and MRIs, but nobody here is willing to read them because nobody here trusts what the report says. If the documents are written in Chinese, Canadian doctors usually can’t read it. Even if they could and wanted to trust it, can they really do so medico-legally? And so it’s the patient that gets left in the lurch.  

In the end, armed with a Chinese-Canadian dictionary in my early years in practise, or more recently Google translate, I’ve learned to muddle through. With my admin staff translating the documents for me, I can usually piece together what procedure a patient has had done overseas. Then we try to match them with the appropriate follow up here, often repeating the testing and imaging so that patients can access care here. 

But it’s getting better. In my early years, I couldn’t find any oncology clinics willing to follow my patients who had started their chemotherapy overseas. Many of these patients flew all the way here to use their hard-won Ontario health care card, only to have to fly back home shortly thereafter when they realized they weren’t going to receive timely care in Canada. These days, I’ve seen more care handoffs take place here smoothly. Truly, the health care world is becoming a little friendlier to immigrants. 

It used to drive me crazy when my patients sought out health care overseas. In medical school, we’re taught a very idealized version of medical care, something akin to the traditional country doctor’s life straight out of the 19th century. A patient feels unwell. They seek out a local physician. The physician solves the problem or directs them to someone else who can. The problem is solved, and life goes on. 

But in real life, I saw that patients didn’t always stay in one place. Sometimes they asked me for help first. Then they’d go overseas. At other times, they came back from Asia and needed my help deciphering what had happened to them there. And back and forth they went. 

Sometimes I’d get exasperated that they were receiving substandard care overseas. At other times, I’d gain an appreciation that they really could get better, faster treatment for certain things in China that in Canada would have taken ages. In time, I developed a grudging respect for health care in China. 

As I worked with patients who were navigating these two systems simultaneously, I felt myself drawn into a curious, political dilemma. Which health care system is better? 

Sometimes patients would pull me aside and ask me what they should do, fly back to China and seek urgent care or wait a bit longer to see their specialist here in Canada? 

The issues were always some variation of the same theme, a weighing of trade-offs: comfort with the language, wait times, medical expertise, as well as the family support system, all bundled into one massive equation that boiled down to a simple binary question: China or Canada? 

I’ve found my own stance on the issue change over time. When I first graduated from medical school, armed with all my pro-Western biases, the answer was almost certainly Canada. 

But in recent years, I’ve watched medicine advance in China from afar, through what my patients tell me, and through the medical records and histories that they bring back to me. Perhaps there’s still a lot of overkill in investigations on the other side of the ocean, but often the quality of medicine isn’t that different from what it is here. And it’s almost certainly faster. And if you can pay for quicker care, why not? Moreover, many of these Chinese immigrants have family support networks back home that simply don’t exist here. For them to return home for their care simply makes rational sense. Nothing reminds someone of how foreign they are as being in a cold, sterile hospital environment where nobody speaks your language. 

More than a year after she departed, Mrs. Lin returns to my clinic. Following a lumpectomy and ten rounds of chemotherapy, the doctors in China have instructed her to remain on estrogen receptor therapy for the next five years. 

Why did she return to China for medical care? Despite living in Canada for more than a decade and having a passable command of the English language, she still felt that for something as serious as this, she wanted to be someplace she could speak her native tongue. Plus, she would have family members there to support her. Left unsaid is that the entire medical procedure in China took days to arrange not weeks as it would have here. 

I refer her to a medical oncologist, who reports back to me that she is overall, in agreement with the patient’s treatment plan. She replaces the patient’s estrogen treatment with an alternative agent that is available in Canada. 

Web photo by Zac Ong 

Additional Chapters from A Chinese City Doctor’s Notebook

When Your Body Isn’t Yours 

01.12.26 686

From Tigers to Otaku

09.16.25 1539

The Happiest Couple

07.28.25 1291

The Things We Don’t Talk About When We Talk About Dying 

05.13.25 1870

One Patient, Two Systems 

02.24.25 2531

The narrator has enjoyed a mostly healthy life. He has traveled to Europe and once was treated for syphilis while there. He has been together with L for seven years. Both men are writers who teach at the university. Now, the pain that grips him defies exact description (even for a professional writer). The closest comparison that he can conjure is having someone’s hand plunge into his body and twist his guts along with the sensation of being kneed in the groin. He’s reluctant to seek medical attention since medical facilities are especially risky during the pandemic. So he waits and hurts. The pain is soon accompanied by fever, chills, and aching of the limbs. 

He decides to go to urgent care. After a brief evaluation, he’s referred to the university medical center ER. Covid testing is negative. A CT scan reveals an aortic dissection (tear in the aorta) associated with aortitis (an inflammation of this large blood vessel). He is told that such a tear is frequently fatal. He’s lucky to be alive. The narrator is placed in the ICU and treated with IV antibiotics, fluids, and antihypertensive medications. The vascular surgeon recommends holding off on any operation (either a stent or a graft), hoping the tear and inflammation will stabilize and heal. 

Hospitalized for a week and a half, the narrator confesses his feelings of helplessness, shame, bewilderment, and fear. He is intrigued by the bustle of the hospital – almost electric with human energy – but despondent over the seemingly omnipresent suffering there – his own, that of fellow patients, and even the distress of healthcare workers. He is most impressed by and appreciative of his ICU nurse, Alivia. As for the physicians involved in his care, the narrator notes the stark clinical detachment of many doctors. Reflecting on a visit from a rheumatologist, he concludes, “I was nothing to her, really, I was her job, she would clock out and enter her real life” (p124). He craves to sense some vulnerability and genuine concern emanating from his physicians. As for empathy, the narrator reveals some of his own when he decides, “it must be hell to be a resident” (p129) in training. 

The search for possible rare etiologies of his condition comes up empty. As his condition slowly improves, the narrator still worries about his current predicament and the future: “I was an enigma, they said, a conundrum, they were running out of ideas” (p121). The waiting for and indecision about any kind of surgical intervention wears on him. He wonders if it might be best to have an operation. 

But the narrator never has surgery. A repeat CT scan confirms stability of the aorta and resolution of all inflammation. He is discharged home on oral medicines and continued IV antibiotics. Frequent follow-up appointments with his doctors and imaging studies of his aorta are scheduled. His partner L lovingly tends to his needs. His sister G arrives to help too. The narrator’s prognosis is murky. Did he dodge a bullet? Or are further problems with his aorta inevitable? How does a person cope with such chronic uncertainty. Although the narrator is weak and emotionally rattled, he is happy to be alive, pain-free, ambulatory, and home with his lover. Shouldn’t that be enough? 

The novel reads more like a memoir than a work of fiction. It is impressively authentic and accurate about medical matters – the lingo and professional behavior of physicians, nursing care, clinical procedures, what it feels like to be a patient. Readers will rightfully consider whether the book’s author is perhaps recounting his own experience with a serious health problem.  

In this novel, the human body is depicted in many ways: sensuous, serviceable, surrendered to others, surreal when sick. The narrator’s experience of illness includes a warping of time, the pull of memory, the weight of regret, the need for truth, and the magic of love.  

The poet-protagonist is occasionally irritated by the language and metaphors spewed by doctors and nurses. The use of broad-spectrum antibiotics is explained to him as a “carpet bomb approach.” He is warned about the caustic effect of IV drugs and that his veins might “burn out.” This medical lexicon prompts the narrator to ponder “who taught these people, who gave them their vocabulary, their stock of images” (p86).  

We don’t need a novel (even an exceptional one like Small Rain) to remind us about the randomness and chaos of ordinary life, the uncertainty of health in the future. But we can look to great literature for inspiration, to help us understand and cope with those looming, difficult experiences. The word rain is both a noun (drops of moisture or a spiritual blessing) and a verb (something sent down in abundance). Whether it is tears (of pain and emotion), love, or gratitude, the rain in this story is hardly small.  

Small Rain: A Novel 
by Garth Greenwell 
New York: Farrar, Straus and Giroux, 2024, 320 pages 
ISBN 9780374279547 
Web photo by Pawel Nolbert